So as you all know by now, I've had issues all my life. Basically in primary school everyone got teased by this girl, well, alot of us anyway... who by the end of primary school kinda stopped, but still -it had all begun. In secondary school (12-15) I was bullied by all the boys -oh what a great life. I fainted in school because I hadn't eaten for days/weeks and finally had to talk to a nurse about it. I don't know how much my mom knows, we've never really talked about it. It's not because I have a bad relationship with my mom, it's because I find it hard to talk to the people I love about the things that are closest to my heart (it should be oposite, yes).
After the first year of high school I finally left my hometown and moved to the city where my biodad is from. Imagine that. I am also born there for that matter... but anyway. I had a boyfriend there at the time, so it was the most logical place to follow highschool the last two years. In Narvik everything changed, I got friends, real friends, people who cared about me and didn't leave.. Now don't get me wrong, in secondary school (ungdomsskolen) I had Tine and Siri, and to this day we are still in touch.. I won't be overexadurating when I say they were my only friends back then -although Janne was also a part of my sociallife back when.
After that I had a brief year in Kristiansand, then went to Tromsø for pharmacy studies. I never felt I fit in with my Pharmacy co-students. Although, by the third year I felt I had found some people I could trust. After finishing my masters however, things changed, and the person I thought was my best friend kind of turned on me in the beginning of the year, making me feel very sad and depressed about it all... Ah well.
Long story kinda short, now I'm back in Oslo. Although Martine and Andreas have moved to Canada, and there's been a few tears on that, they are still good friends of ours. I miss them, I will always miss them, but hey, they are living in Canada and we will get to visit them and have a blast. Cassandra is one of my new aquaintances ever since I moved down here, and I would actually admit to saying she is pretty much 80% of all my social life outside of work/gym. Torbjørn is always around (well almost) for saturday gym and turkish -and I bet we could have seen more of him, but as we are, he's probably busy during the week. We stay in touch via SMS though, which is good. Then there's the funcommies who are always fun to hang out with -although I must admit my knowledge of GUI's is rather horrible.
All in all, what I wanted to say was - I feel like my life is getting better on the friends side. These people are not bullshit people who act one way and feel another. They say what they think, they do what they want, and don't worry about what everyone else thinks. They are good people, and I love and adore them all in their own little way. Thank you everyone, for making my life a whole lot better.
Now, people change, and friendships change -there's no guarantee all of these people will still be in my life in a year. But right now, I appreciate where we all are in life, and just wanted to blog a bit about how I feel like my life quality has increased by 200% (or more) just because I'm finally out of Uni, and can choose who my friends are, and who the people around me are every day - I love being an "adult".
About biodad -no news, other than I have to find some way to meet him soon. Going mentally insane not knowing, and it's like ripping off a bandaid, it might hurt, but needs to be done. The wound needs air to heal -just do it.
fredag 28. mai 2010
onsdag 12. mai 2010
Ice-coffee delievered!
Hey!
Just a short update. I just did 3 rounds in 7 minutes of 10 HPC's and 20 situps (anchored). It was probably not supposed to be HPC's, but they didn't have an 11 kg bar at Spektrum (they don't, I knew from before) they had 20kg, and I chose to do HPC's instead of proper cleans. Anyway, not too happy with only 3 rounds, but then again, I'm not a big dawg, I'm a puppy, and in some cases a buttercup. I warmed up with my usual 1k row (haha, usual, I've done it twice). Improved my time with 3 seconds, so now my time is 4 min 30,6s. Working my way down! I cashed out with 10 jumping smith machine pullups (really managing to hold myself on the way down now). And 3x10 HSPU with my feet on a bench, well, feet, I had my thighs on it, right above my knees (gotta start somewhere).
But to the topic, Cass brought me a icelatte at work today! She came by the pharmacy randomly and gave me an ice coffee! Oh thank you so much, you made my day and made me feel so incredibly special! <3<3<3 Three hearts for you for being so awesome. I will hang out with you, when we have time.. hehe :) Busy lives. Luckily the pharmacy was not very busy at the time so we managed to chit chat a bit while I had my coffee... Ice coffee.... NOMNOMNOM!
Cooking bacon in bacon (meaning pork wrapped in bacon), waiting for Pete to hurry home after BJJ to eat and run through the shower before going to the movies. I have a feeling we will be late (ah well). Iron man 2 starts at 20:45, and we need to get our tickets from the machine first. Should leave the house around 20.15 to get there on time and all (most likely will be leaving later, I know my man... hmm.)
TTYL
xoxo
M
Just a short update. I just did 3 rounds in 7 minutes of 10 HPC's and 20 situps (anchored). It was probably not supposed to be HPC's, but they didn't have an 11 kg bar at Spektrum (they don't, I knew from before) they had 20kg, and I chose to do HPC's instead of proper cleans. Anyway, not too happy with only 3 rounds, but then again, I'm not a big dawg, I'm a puppy, and in some cases a buttercup. I warmed up with my usual 1k row (haha, usual, I've done it twice). Improved my time with 3 seconds, so now my time is 4 min 30,6s. Working my way down! I cashed out with 10 jumping smith machine pullups (really managing to hold myself on the way down now). And 3x10 HSPU with my feet on a bench, well, feet, I had my thighs on it, right above my knees (gotta start somewhere).
But to the topic, Cass brought me a icelatte at work today! She came by the pharmacy randomly and gave me an ice coffee! Oh thank you so much, you made my day and made me feel so incredibly special! <3<3<3 Three hearts for you for being so awesome. I will hang out with you, when we have time.. hehe :) Busy lives. Luckily the pharmacy was not very busy at the time so we managed to chit chat a bit while I had my coffee... Ice coffee.... NOMNOMNOM!
Cooking bacon in bacon (meaning pork wrapped in bacon), waiting for Pete to hurry home after BJJ to eat and run through the shower before going to the movies. I have a feeling we will be late (ah well). Iron man 2 starts at 20:45, and we need to get our tickets from the machine first. Should leave the house around 20.15 to get there on time and all (most likely will be leaving later, I know my man... hmm.)
TTYL
xoxo
M
mandag 10. mai 2010
Lately
I've been really busy.. Last weekend it was Rome with work, which was really cool. this weekend there was Simens confirmation -also very nice and "family time" which is always good. Although, when going back I really understood how much travelling alone sucks.. Noone to keep you company, noone to talk to, noone to hang out with. I bored myself to death.. When I got home I was exhausted, tired, and felt like an idiot because...
...well first of all, when travelling from Gardemoen I decided to take the local NSB train to save 95kr (as the airport express is more expensive, but IS faster). I thereby got into Oslo S about 20 mins later than if I had chosen the Airport Express... fair enough, I did save 90kr, it was just 23.15 already and I was dead tired. I get off the train, walk towards the tram and a junkie girl (probably my age) tries to stop me for a favour, I say I don't have time and hurry off -feeling kinda bad but.... As I walk out the doors of Oslo Central, the 12 tram is about to leave the stop, I try to make it but I don't... I walk over to the 11 tram, thinking ok, five minutes to 54 bus, five minutes to 11 tram, the tram is normally quicker.. err, WRONG! I see the 54 bus go by two minutes later...
Then, the 17 tram arrives at the same time as the 11 tram, meaning the 11 tram stops right behind it. And instead of doing the normal "wait for first tram to leave", he opens the doors in front and lets people out. This leading to people getting ON it aswell, meaning I have to walk with my suitcases to the front door of the tram. Seeing as I have TWO f***ing suitcases I struggle getting them ON the tram, and I can feel peoples eyes as I am delaying the tram from leaving (being stuck in the narrow doorway). I finally sit down and the tram goes forward, and STOPS on the stupid stop again, which means -as I thought, but didn't dare believe, that I could have waited for the stupid tram to stop again... When I arrive at the stop at home, I manage to get my suitcases out but smash them into the ground as I didn't take down the handles before carrying them off.. -again, feeling like an Idiot.
In addition to that I was trying to contact boyfriend to get him to meet me at tram stop... seeing at it was 23.40 and I wanted company on the short -but long way home... Of course his cell was without power.. this all led to me having a mental breakdown as I walked in the door, crying my eyes out because I was so tired... -silly? Yes definetly, but did I do it anyway? Yes
Sorry for boring you with my sappy boring life, needed to vent.
Really don't wanna go to the gym today.. slept about 5,5 hours and just wanna go home and snuggle in some blankets on the sofa... :( Hopefully will go anyway, project "getting better with food and excersize" starts now.. feeling way to crappy about myself not to..
xoxo
M
Edit: Todays WOD is "Barbie" (modified from "Barbara"), the temptation of doing it at home is big, as it involves pull-ups, push-ups, situps and squats..
...well first of all, when travelling from Gardemoen I decided to take the local NSB train to save 95kr (as the airport express is more expensive, but IS faster). I thereby got into Oslo S about 20 mins later than if I had chosen the Airport Express... fair enough, I did save 90kr, it was just 23.15 already and I was dead tired. I get off the train, walk towards the tram and a junkie girl (probably my age) tries to stop me for a favour, I say I don't have time and hurry off -feeling kinda bad but.... As I walk out the doors of Oslo Central, the 12 tram is about to leave the stop, I try to make it but I don't... I walk over to the 11 tram, thinking ok, five minutes to 54 bus, five minutes to 11 tram, the tram is normally quicker.. err, WRONG! I see the 54 bus go by two minutes later...
Then, the 17 tram arrives at the same time as the 11 tram, meaning the 11 tram stops right behind it. And instead of doing the normal "wait for first tram to leave", he opens the doors in front and lets people out. This leading to people getting ON it aswell, meaning I have to walk with my suitcases to the front door of the tram. Seeing as I have TWO f***ing suitcases I struggle getting them ON the tram, and I can feel peoples eyes as I am delaying the tram from leaving (being stuck in the narrow doorway). I finally sit down and the tram goes forward, and STOPS on the stupid stop again, which means -as I thought, but didn't dare believe, that I could have waited for the stupid tram to stop again... When I arrive at the stop at home, I manage to get my suitcases out but smash them into the ground as I didn't take down the handles before carrying them off.. -again, feeling like an Idiot.
In addition to that I was trying to contact boyfriend to get him to meet me at tram stop... seeing at it was 23.40 and I wanted company on the short -but long way home... Of course his cell was without power.. this all led to me having a mental breakdown as I walked in the door, crying my eyes out because I was so tired... -silly? Yes definetly, but did I do it anyway? Yes
Sorry for boring you with my sappy boring life, needed to vent.
Really don't wanna go to the gym today.. slept about 5,5 hours and just wanna go home and snuggle in some blankets on the sofa... :( Hopefully will go anyway, project "getting better with food and excersize" starts now.. feeling way to crappy about myself not to..
xoxo
M
Edit: Todays WOD is "Barbie" (modified from "Barbara"), the temptation of doing it at home is big, as it involves pull-ups, push-ups, situps and squats..
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