tirsdag 29. juni 2010

of course

...war is a bad thing. My last post might have been kind of awkwardly written. It was written in affection and in sorrow so please forgive my kind of weird way of saying things. Just wanted to point that out. I am in fact Norwegian, Norwegians are in general against war and yes, our defence is called our national defence for a reason. Sadly however, fact is that war IS going on, and people, sivilians and army are getting killed, and that is sad.

To add to the fact it made me think of dead boyfriend too. Ah well, to be a bit politically uncorrect (more politically uncorrect) about it all, we all are still alive, and we will be fine. It sure doesn't feel like it for the people left behind right now, but it is, as I have experienced a fact. I remember the worst part of the days after the death was that the world just seemed to move further, and I felt like I just stood still watching it move. It sucked ass..

Again, Rest in Peace Simen and your fellow soldiers -you will all be missed.

(In random chain of events american TV just had a political thing about the fact that the Afghan war is the longest war in american history (atleast on forein soil maybe?? -I'm no history student).

mandag 28. juni 2010


Four Norwegian soldiers were killed in Afghanistan today. One of them was one of my favourite freshmans when I was a senior in High School. Rest in Peace Simen, you will never be forgotten.

My vacation got off to a bit of a rocky start with this message -although that is nothing compared to the pain and hurt and devastation his family and loved ones feel (and the three others). I had to write this, war is a hard thing to decide whether is good or bad... But whatever lives war takes, it always hurts for someone.

All my love and sympathy to the families and friends of our soldiers.

tirsdag 22. juni 2010

Friendships and boyfriends (and alcohol too)

Warning, If you are one of my friends, and you do read my blog, either you can choose to be offended, you can choose not to read this post, or you can choose to just not put too much into things like this, as it is in fact a blog -and blogs are mainly about ranting.

I've never been a girl with a lot of friends. I've never been a girl with alot of female friends first of all, nor did I ever have a lot of boyfriends/boy-friends. Some of my boy friends, turned out to be either into being my boyfriend, or they found some girl who weren't interessted in them having a girl friend, so they basically just fell out of my life. Not that I mind, if you aren't man enough to keep your friendships after you join a relationship, then screw you -you have to learn to man up.
I will admit to the fact that if my boyfriend had a girlfriend he talked to more than he talked with me, and even hung out with more than he was around me, then yes -I would mind. My boyfriend however doesn't believe in jealousy, and if I did become jealous, that would be my problem -not his. Fair enough really, although it would pose a problem for our relationship. Good thing it's not an issue -at least not at the present time.

I just came to think of the fact that I don't really have that many close friends -and I don't see my friends very often. Does that make me a bad person? I don't think so. First of all, when you are no longer a student, you are no longer around alot of the people that you used to call friends. If I have to be honest with you, only one, or maybe two of the people I went to school with are my actual friends. I have a lot of aquaintances, and I have a lot of people I "know" -but friends? I wouldn't quite say that we are, no. It's ok that I meet these people every now and again, it's also ok that we have a coffee or do a BBQ in a park somewhere -it's just that, I feel like whenever we meet and casually talk, I remember and realize why we are not friends, and that we really don't have that much in common. And do you know what that is? It's JUST FINE.

We were forced to hang out, because we went to school together. Ok, so we picked the same studies. Picking the same degree means you should probably have some stuff in common, some sort of shared interest you would be able to talk about, and yes, we do. Besides that however, there isn't that much else that matches. I'm a nerdy computer girl who don't mind using the computer as my entertainmentcenter. I don't like going out and getting wasted, I choose not to do so because I don't feel like it, not because I'm trying to be boring. That's another thing btw, why are you always stamped as boring just because you'd rather stay in and watch a good movie instead of getting wasted at an overpriced bar? I never got drunk beyond belief, I never really "got" the whole drinking your brains out... I just, don't. Does it make me less interessting? I hate having hangovers, and after the last time I went out with work, I've had a headache for a week and a half because of shoulder/neck pains. This goes to show, alcohol + me = bad.

I'm lucky, I'm with someone who understands that, and who loves me for who I am. I've gotten new friends who also don't nag me about "oh but why aren't you drinking", and instead just accept that I want to have water for the rest of the evening instead of hangover-red-wine. I don't like beer, I detest drinks unless they are made by a professional, and even then, they bore me after a while because they are too sweet or too something.

Anyway.. back to the friendships. I've seen people come and go, alot actually -and haven't we all. I'm glad I've come to a point in life where I get to pick my friends, and my school doesn't get to pick them for me. I'm SO happy I don't have to be a part of a "group" that I don't really belong into, but I try anyway just because they feel like they have to invite me in. I'm glad all the lunches are over, all the heartaches are over, and that all the mean people in my life has gone their own ways. Some of them are probably not mean people, but we just didn't get along, which is as mentioned already, F-I-N-E.

This post turned out a bit different than I thought it would. Ah well, I write whatever pops into my head, and I don't edit. so here ya go.

mandag 21. juni 2010

Not quite afterall.

I'm bored, waiting for P to finish work. He should be done any minute, but are working on something so I assume it will take a bit longer than expected. We're going to the park for a birthday celebration, I bet I will go insane not being able to go to the bathroom (haha, ain't my blog interessting to read?). The weather is fantabulous, I think it should have been this way this weekend too, but ah well, guess I'll have to make the most of it. I don't start work until noon tomorrow, and 11 the next day, so some morning sunshine will do me good.

Payroll ppl f'ed up my paycheck this month, so I got about 10k less than expected. That sucked ass, but I should be getting some more tomorrow. I won't get double (which was half expected), but I mean, with the tax money I'm getting back I should be pretty good for the summer. It's now only 6 days for departure america, yayayayayyaa... Can you tell I'm excited to go?
What I'm more excited about than anything is just to enjoy time with P without having to plan on it. Weekends just seem to fly by, and even though I don't mind weekends indoor with TV and or computers in addition to lunch and workouts with good friends, they just run out too quickly. Atleast when we are in the US it's easier to just take a drive somewhere to visit someone and not just sit indoor even if the weather is crap.

I want to find some new websites to read on. Even though I should read on marksdailyapple and more of the crossfit, paleo etc sites that I already read on. I dunno, sometimes I just find it hard to sit down and read alot, and it doesn't feel like the information I read get into my head, it just kinda stays out there on the outside.. (hihi, that sounded weird...makes sense in my head though). If you have any good ones let me know though, I could always use some more information.

One of the new students are kinda... odd.. First of all she corrected me when I told a customer that after a certain time, say ten years, a patent runs out and other drug companies are allowed to make the same drug. Now ok, tbf, I don't remember how long a patent runs, but that was beyond the point. She corrected me by phrasing it @mee: I think you said something WRONG. ok? You said that patents run out after 10 years, its actually 20...
I must admit I became a bit offended, it was her second day and she was corrected me. To be fair, she is probably (very likely) correct, but the point wasn't to have a class on patent law for the customer, but to tell her that after a certain amount of time things change.
So, today, I showed the student this awesome site where some guys (maybe girls, I dunno, whatever) have listed all supplements and put them in a bubble chart. The bubblechart displays the evidence for the supplements, along with their suggested diseases to prevent&or aid. All in all there is a "worth it" line that tells you if the supplements evidence basis is good enough to actually be worth taking it or not. Anyway, new student then says, ha ha, well look at the sitename, alot of those sites are just bullshit according to some of our teachers..

I'm like, ok hon, but you see this chart is based on alot of studies, looked up through PubMed (and actually cochrane too, although cochrane isnt the best source for material always) and have very well documented stuff... ARGH! Why does she think that I, as a professional, would show her a site where the information was taken out of the blue?? ARGH! Yes, I am overreacting, but she was/is being annoying at several other things and sometimes, its just not what I need right there and then... And also I'm superready for vaca...


søndag 20. juni 2010



Not much to write these days -thereby, no blogging. It's weird really. I've had Martine over for two weeks, it feels like no time at all. Time fly by when you have work and busy lives with all the stuff going on around it. Synne came to Oslo a few days ago, and now she took over the relay-stick (it is the proper word for it, but I like "stafettpinne" better) and is currently occupying my sofa. Good times.

Summer has fallen down from the skies, yayyy!! It's sunny and warm and you never have to wear a jacket. Now I must admit -Peter has been wearing no jacket forever. In one little week we will be on our way to America and we will have a three week long vacation with no worries but what to eat, which surely can't be a problem in that country. We are going to try and squeeze in time with as many people as possible, and even make it for a week up north to see our good friends in Montreal.

I find myself content with the way things are right now. I know there are still issues to be resolved with my dad. I know there are still alot of heartache to go through, but I just don't feel like doing that right now. I love my man, I love my life, but since I didn't get the job, I am opening up my options for moving, either within or out from the country. There's no day like today, and no moment like the present. -Which I just proved by shoving my face full of "small-candy" (another good norwegian word, smågodt), alot of Pistasjio ice-cream and three whole wheat buns... NOMNOM. Oh Oslo thou art dangerous, there is too short of a distance between the deli-delucas and the 7elevens.

cyas all later, can't promise any blogging for some weeks, maybe I will, maybe I won't.